reason to Dream

" without a Dream there is no reason to work
...without Work there is no reason to dream."

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.                                                                                                       Copyright © 1987 Lee Ayers

speaking of dreams, nanaginip po ako


ang dami kong panaginip ngayon, and i remember most of them,

unlike some time before


before i worked, i never dreamed, really,  ..or at least i dont remember dreams when i wake up, or they are not vivid




eto:





Bingi daw ako, sa una kong panaginip, which is not far from truth in real life,


pero sabi:























Deaf 

To dream that you are deaf, indicates that you are feeling secluded from the world.
You may be closing yourself off from new experiences or shutting yourself out.
If someone else in your dream is deaf, this suggests that someone close to you
is withdrawn and not sharing their emotions.

which is also not far from truth in real life

Sa ikalawa kong panaginip, we were standing near a fireplace, c mama, my sister janine, and I

isa syang bahay na bato, at parang may kagubatan sa labas, kitang-kita from inside the house bcoz of the glass panels


a visitor came in, binalita nya patay na daw tatay ko!


nahulog, nadurog, ang puso ko!


sobra


then I woke up,

and wondered,

hindi naman ako ganon kalungkot cguro kung mamamatay tatay ko, kung lola ko pa, cguro ganun ka-intense


so i looked this up, too?


yes:

 Death

Dreams about death are not necessarily bad omens, but they usually represent anxious or angry feelings. To dream of your own death is actually positive - it means renewal and letting go of an old stage of life. This is also a common dream when you are getting over an illness - and it's a good sign that you are getting better. However, if you dream that you are dying slowly, you need to drastically change your routine and reenergize your life. To dream about the death of a loved one, suggests that you are lacking a certain quality that the loved one represents. Ask yourself what makes this person special or what do you like about him. It is that very quality that you are lacking in your own relationship or circumstances. To dream of a death frequently signifies news of a birth. To be aware of a dead person you cannot identify foretells an inheritance which may not be personal, but could be indirectly beneficial to you.




so, i realized it was the positive values my father represents that saddened me, not his physical death,

but the loss of the values in life that for me he represents,  Loyalty, Perseverance, Hardwork,

maybe there's one word that conveys all these values, but iM at a loss


and i also realized that things we don't deal with in  "real life"  always turn up somewhere, in weird circumstances, coincidences, and in dreams

yun lang po, sharing

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